I found out about Sravyashree closeness to one of her tuition friend. When i wanted to get things cleared from Sravyashree, i didn't get a proper answer. I was hurt. Deeply hurt. I couldn't accept this behaviour from her. I broke up with her...
We didn't talk for months... No sms's, no calls, no chats, nothing. Total cut-off.
I became serious about my graduation studies. Some one and a half years later, came her sms:
Don't you want us to be together? I still believe that we are meant for eachother.
I said, i have other things to worry about. I cannot get into a relationship now.
Days passed by, we started texting eachother frequently. We became friends again. We used to sms. This happened for four months, then we stopped talking again as i didn't like some of her wishes in her life. This on and off period lasted for four years after school.
During this phase, i had crush over some other girl who i thought was "ideal" for me. The kind of person i want to live with. But, that crush was over in no time. And again, i was left alone.
I missed Sravyashree. I missed her voice, i missed her winking smileys that she used to send in text messages, i missed her laughter. Even though, we were not together then, i was getting close to her. A permanent bonding was getting made, unknowingly to me. In this gap of four years, she proposed me on two valentines day. I declined. Not that i didn't love her, but because i wasn't sure about her. And i was adamant in my stand and choices then. So, there was no way i could accept her proposal...
Then after college, both got placed in good companies. I was to go to abroad for my job and she had to leave delhi for her job. We again started texting eachother till the time i was on international soil. By this time, we knew almost each and everything about eachother. Actually, she is the only person who knows me completely and fully. Everything i mean!
Before she was to leave delhi, we met. She again proposed, i loved her but was reluctant to accept because of her "not so ideal type" for my family. She was kind of modern girl. My family would prefer the opposite. But, we spent some quality time togeher. Thats actually one of the best time we had spent together. She kissed me. It was the first for us. I was speechless. Shocked! but ofcourse happy. I didn't kiss her back. Guilty feeling you know, when you are not sure and you indulge yourself in physical relationship. Then it was like we had become even more close. Then she left. Some months later, I went abroad...
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